My partner had sent me a link to an
online quiz determining Asperger traits in a person and I scored 38 out of 200 with an NT score of 170 out of 200. I am "very likely neurotypical."
I can see how I may have a bit of Asperger-like traits, but I've always thought them as little neuroses or idiosyncrasies that any typical artist would have. Especially with my ability to notice certain details, and this would usually be inclined toward aesthetically pleasing views or feeling the need to make it aesthetically pleasing to the eye. That talent definitely came in handy as an art director, an interior designer assistant and especially as a photographer!
I believe some of my weird habits may have been learned behavior as a child, for example, having a father who is a sous chef. As an adult, I can now appreciate the work and creativity and satisfaction a well-cooked meal can give; however, as a child, it gave no comfort to me always having to be the last at the dinner table because I'm forced to clear my plate. How could I learn to enjoy food I thought was foreign and complex at 6 years old? Why couldn't I just have a cheese pizza or hot dog with mustard?
What may make more sense to my partner is understanding Asperger's Syndrome and how it applies to me in our relationship. I admit I am not well-versed in long-term relationships, and I have friends who have witnessed this and can testify. Perhaps these Asperger traits of mine appear to emerge when in an intimate relationship since that would be the immature area of my life. I'm only now starting to grow, I think, and starting to learn how to be in a long-term relationship. ...I like it. I enjoy it. I'm happy.
I'm just not too sure about carrying the full weight of having complete Asperger's Syndrome. When I was diagnosed two years ago with ADHD, I was also diagnosed with mild Asperger traits. At that time, it made sense to me. I know I have an eccentric way of looking at things and that I am a very picky eater. That's pretty mild in my book.